Posted on | March 6, 2010 |
a couple of months ago, I would’ve said no way.
i was towering over everyone and everything. but i’ve taken my slippers off to kneel and pray - at the very thought of you.
i don’t want to make the same mistake. it’s so easy for you to separate - the colour and the shape.
my dues have been paid in a million ways. the check was made out for 200 days. you cashed it in and didn’t hesitate.
and it made you a hero to me.
do i want to be that indistinct blur? do i want to end up like her? the girl i wanted to never see again. though i fed her milk to make her strong again.
she was sleeping like a baby cub - and when i shook her awake and got her all dressed up. she was so shiny and perfect in every way. we laughed and we said “gosh, look how you’ve changed. we’ll never let it happen again.”
no one has ever called me decisive. wallowing in vagueries is my favorite dish. but i was so sure about this. you made me so sure about this.
so i don’t want them to be right. i want to tell them you are my light. when i am dark, i wish you’d be by my side. telling me that i will see another day.
am i foolish to think this way?he told me we don’t exist in our physical bodies. we flee from them to our memories. traveling each day to the places we feel most safe.
i read it a book that prince charming was a crook. and cinderella was just plain crazy. she was hallucinating and talking to mice. that can’t be right.
i’ve been seeing what i want most to see. and you look so good to me. but i swear i’ll never visit the old me. so if i’m dreaming, let me know i’m dreaming.